Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Wyrm's Wyrd





WYRM’S WYRD

June 21

In the final movement of Beowulf,
(the dragon) lodges himself in the
imagination as a wyrd rather
than a wyrm, more a destiny
than a set of reptilian vertebrae.

-- Seamus Heaney, introduction
to his translation of Beowulf

***

A dry infection haunts the
tomb, the feral husbandman
of gold booty lost in battles
long ago when giants roared
the tundra of first time.
Beast and treasure are one
in that underground
where ancient kings are barrowed,
night and desire wound
in one fantastic weave
of glittery scales around a
gold scatter of
cups and coins and
gleaming armbands. The
metal’s so intricately wrought
that angels before their fall
led the hands of dactyl
craftsmen in working
foundries cold now for
a thousand years. Jealous
warden of our greatest measure,
berserker who flies
out at cold midnight
like a serpent from
black wombs, the beast
we battle is the one
we booned from ten
centuries of errant falls.
Augment and receipt of what
our lust kills most in us,
his thick coils round
a fire both unnatural
and just. Life ends upon his
trysting-ground, a blasted
heath outside a barrow
by the sea where gale
and brutal surf augment
the crush of dragon ire
upon the awful firmament
we all must harrow, his
black hide our thrall marrows,
both intent upon that ghostly
evanescent gleam which streams
through the final door. No man
can fully afford that gold
nor ferry it beyond inside
the keel of his airing ribs.
Hero and dragon meet at last
at the end of the ancient tale,
joined in a writhing seethe
of blade and fang and molten
fury. Keeper and seeker thus
coil as lovers in their lustful
spite of the other to spring
their door at last wide open,
spent vigors cooling
with their meat to end
the myth at last and
enter humbed history.
Smaller men walk
off wearing some fixture
of the trove -- a tarnished
shield or half-split helmet --
united by a story no one
will repeat except in songs
around a fire, that gold
heat inside a circle of the
the mouth bordered by
the ancient feral guardian
of all that gold devours.





PASSION IS WEIRD

September 1995

I wake these
mornings to an
intrusive agony,
my desire for you
thrashing me
with its bouquet
of thorns.

I know this sweetness
is too sharp
and must be eaten
right away,
a ripe fruit whose freight
of sugar is one
night from
bursting wide.

Eventually
I'll be free
and alone again,
healed of
this fragrant
craze.

On the phone
the other night
you talked about
the origins of
the word "weird"
in the old English tongue,
a blasted heath
where the strange
and the destined
twine fair and foul.

There are
some things
we must enter,
those stone doors
of doubt and loss.

There are
some things we
can avoid --
anything the
sun falls on.

But there are other
things we only think
we can avoid,
until our of certainty
gives out in a whoosh --
most things the
moon opens with
its silver blades,
vowels that woo
then wallop,
the shirt of fire
fanned with a kiss.

We say
it was weird...
which says all
we can't, or won't,
or dare not.

Holding you
last night
is torture today.
Knowing what
I must accept
in that moody embrace.

This weird passion
whets the day to a
frightening,
dizzy sharpness.

Unspeakably with
and without you,
I fall for you
as on a sword.




ST. MICHAEL AND MANANNAN

1995

Based on the drawing by William Blake
of St. Michael binding Satan


1. St. Michael to Manannan

He was part of the darkness
that was once my own.
But you bid me rise
so many leagues
that he became
my abandoned depth.
I think of him now
like the amputee
who wakes cupping
a breast in the dream
of a trembling hand.
Once he tried
to drag me home
and we fought halfway
to the bottom of the sea.
As we wrestled
my hair grew white
and his eyes
slit to dragon coals.
The waters
boiled round us
in a terrible swirl,
chasing sea
beasts to the broken
porches of Atlantis.
When I finally
broke his hold
and fettered him
in your chains,
his face sank
the thousand
leagues of grief.
Often these days
I think of him
disappearing into
those silt shadows.
My heart at least
has never been a blade.
You've built your walls
and towers now,
demanding a new
heaven of Gothic stone.
But understand
that each time
I intercede for you
and jam my white
sword in to
the bloody hilt,
an ancient narwhal
suddenly breaks
the sea to pierce
God in the back.

2. Manannan to St. Michael

When the last lock
snapped into
the links of doom
and he rose like
a white sword
to the sky,
I fell into deep
chill moodier
than any fairy spell.
The waters darkened
about me in a cloak
that forever hid
me from your view.
To me you portioned
hoof and horn,
the least parts of
the king's stag.
You paupered
my waves with
cunning boats.
Banished from
the cities to hide in
distant hills and islands,
I became a sleek
captain of absence,
forced to ply my
trade in dream
and sensual smoke.
My gold meadows
blazed to stubbled char.
I understand
that every time
I meet him the white
sword wins all.
Ah, but if you only
understood how those
losses make me strong!
I ripen on a vine that curls
about your sickness,
sorrow and death.
If you would only love
the gall now chilling
into winter, the gates
of my damnation
would forever close.
Perhaps then
the white prince
and I could resume
our song upon that
apple branch
where the fruit is
sweet and cold
and heavy as sleep,
where each bite
fills the mouth with moon,
and the juice runs darkly
down God's uncertain smile
the way eternal lovers
find the greatest grace
exactly where they fail.



BEYOND THE HERO

2004


If you meet the hero on
the road, drown him in
the mere. Subsume
his questing premise
in its blue ache, his mail
delivered tumbling
back to that Beloved
he will never find
nor ever lost.
Here is the night, more
ripened than you
can ever pray to juice,
offering suck to those
who praise the way
it hangs and swings
inside the shelves
of humid dark. Hold
it here at the
altar’s lip where you
hurry all your verbs
into her spread
too-lucent clench.
Praise the split whale-boats
and sunken skulls around
which the garden rises
so fragile and labile
and triumphant. Praise
our cats prowling for those
doves and hummingbirds
who kiss our day. And praise
the expense of sleep
which whorls like fog
an ocean phosphor
round the top of the
streetlight just outside,
just beyond the
world where all seems
riven with the dead.
The murmuring
light of dreaming
drowning men
is inside your mouth,
crying yes as it burnishes
the knight in his tired
armor where he lies
at the threshold of a
castle where an old
king keeps trying to
reassemble the broken
chalice which is
the history of my
long and fruitless
travail away from you,
an errant mission I
have found, useless
because the fathoms
of cold water of your No
does not so much drown
as disclose the amniotic
leak inside my desire
to hold you tight
at last and hear you
cry my name. Throw
the hero in the mere
that he may know
he windmill in his
gut which keeps the
king’s lands dry
and far apart; and so
beneath its ceaseless
awayward motions
find that stone which
lifts and loosens and
fills every quest with
brine. Praise the sounds
of his horse’s hooves
clopping far down
and inside the black
heaviness of this night,
the armor’s creak and
clatter, his tune almost
tonelessly whistling the
matins of his momentary
quench inside the
sweetly ravished
and deeply birthing bride.



SONG TO LIR

2005

I’m still in thrall with those bad
old nights. Black fiddles still
saw swoony and fey that
big night music in my reverie;
something lurches when I
recall the thrill of driving headlong
into the darkest rooks of town,
scenting something blonde and
bloodlike in the night breeze rushing
through the opened windows
of my car, the ions of summer
storm and surf igniting my
neural ramparts, like St. Elmo’s
Fire, with the eerie wattage
of danger and booze and sex.
That blue alchemy was the
quintessence of my Faustian
dive into LaLaLand, pouring
myself in votive jolting jets
down into the badassed
veld of all Black Mothers.
Certainly all that is
nothing to fall too much in
love with again, else I fall again
in all those hurtful ways.
Yet in that gnarly bad-booze
brew a crystal bed lay far
down out of view; at the heart
of those dark quests lay the
the hope of finding once again that
bright grail of clear blue love
which in all the years of
roaming and ravening I had
blundered on two or three
too-brief essential times,
each a milky pure enactment
which washed me more
cleaner of my arrears
than when I was baptized in the
sea at Melbourne Beach
when puberty shot me forth.
Perhaps that soft-glo bed
of Perfect Love was just the
golden carrot of a darker
more selfish appetite for More;
I certainly crept out of
far too many beds
at the far ends of those nights
believing Love -- the free-fall,
lucky type -- was nowhere
on that rumpled snoring shore.
All that is true, but these
days another thought begins
to form that the whole of that
gambol between savage lust
and starry love was just the
foolish half I too much believed,
meant by godlike hands whose
ends were mine, as if
my enbrined sense could drink
a goddess night to dregs.
A Puritan error I have so many
drowned fathers to thank, I think.
I come to sense now that while
I dissembled like an Actaon on
down those bad years, ever more
mauled and shredded by my own howls
for love in a wilderness of rock taverns
and boob bars and and bottle clubs,
some darker underside was nursing
from me, not so much from my acts
but the desires which teated them,
growing more visible as a shape defined up from an
enormous sea which is the greatest
part of me, a whale which grazed
upon on my yearning midnight stare.
While I banged on to ruinous ends
it lurched and followed, devouring
every whiskey bottle, bra and guitar
pick I flung over a shoulder toward
forgetfulness, each a wafer of communion
which slowly woke his soul in mine,
night after night, acre after fathom
of that watery abyss. And then one
night I found us somehow one,
my slipping & sliding & oh so
wounded feet astride his hoary back.
Back then the endless drinking felt
like I had fallen in the whale,
but now I sense that I had just
found a footing there where falling
is the precipice of everything
desire bid me lose. Weirdly too
I sense I’ve yet to hit the real
bottom of that sea, years now
after the last bad boozing night.
There were years in which I
boarded up against all beams
of wet wild night; then years of
reparation for the guilt and shame
by living well and deep. There came
hard education where I learned
that love could not become itself
till I forsook all hope of pouring
it its perfection from a bottle,
babe, and bed. Amid all that
I felt him there, dangerous and
wild, a dark layer of endless
ache which no prayer could
fleece or flay. Now I sense I’m
simply heading deeper as the
two of us swim on. I think
of those old nights and,
with no actual desire to lose
myself in them again, sigh and
swish the liquor of it here,
feasting with stained chops
upon its taste of endlessness,
hauling on huge nipples of
forever-sweeter more, invoking
that blackout in the beast
which parks me on the shore
of Paradise. Yes -- oh feel that
dark immensity lurch deep
within, free and feral in the
deepest nacre of the thrall,
cresting a huge wave in a shower
of moon silver to spume spermatic
fire defiant toward the sky,
crashing down with all the massy
freight of an old, emphatic joy.
And that is just the surface part,
for he dives deeper than what
sight I’ve learned to toss. The limbic
sea he swims on down and back
I will never fully sound, much
know how many million years
he thrusts and fins the verbs.
I’m writing here truly as I’m
riding him, a silly dram
of wakeful ocean on a course
of endless waves, boy cupid
with this tiny flute astride
the night’s Leviathan.
Carve me on the upmost
arch of his coat of arms. Hang
us on the headboard of every
bed I’ve held a woman in.
Carve us on the gravestone
where at last I’m fully wed.
And to every savage fantasy
I hold like whiskey on my tongue,
may his loll like the clabber
which all night bells are rung.


THE GOLDEN ASS

2004

High and lower god, you both have
Tails: No wonder ass is both my
Cup and curse, the gnomon of dark
Doors & arch foolery. The drunk
Has shit for brains, getting high on
Lows, his first thought hot for the worst
Rub-a-dub ding-dong diddly-dunk.
Ass chants its own high mass, just turned
Upside down: True in the fishy
Funkiest derange, chasing each
Salty dog from tail to sea to
tell all again. O give me the
Purest baptism of all, my sweet,
Nail me deep to all I cannot say:
Soar this song’s end -- O walk away!


Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Drip Drip Drip




While (the Heir of Lambton)
was away the thing grew too
big for the well, and came out
and began to ravage the
countryside. At length it
got so big that it coiled itself
three times around Lambton
HIll, and every night it had to
be given the milk of seven cows
to keep it quiet.

-- from the tale “The Worm
of Lambton Hill,” in Briggs,
Fairies in Tradition and Literature

... Against his will
he led them to the earth-vault he alone knew,
an underground barrow near the sea-billows
and heaving waves, heaped inside
with exquisite metalwork. The one who stood guard
was dangerous and watchful, warden of that trove
buried under the earth; no easy bargain
would be made in that place by any man.

-- Beowulf 2409-16, transl. Heaney

Lord, sometimes I get so tired
of orating this same mythic crap
where history and mystery
crash at a shore of welcomes
and farewells, blah blah blah:
Even blue at its wildest tide
hammers in a drone when
that’s the only tone to register
inside all days. It’s 4:30 a.m.
and we’re in the rainy season
at last -- hard pours for
two days as the afternoon
seabreeze fronts strolled over.
This hour is now a thick
heave of those sated lungs,
lush and verdant, crickets
weaving a dazed ooze
of something labial and
creamy and darkly, darkly
sweet -- mmmm. Our cat
sprawls in sleep on the
couch across from me,
a furred familiar, her surrender
to this rich and drifting-dreamy,
ruddering somehow my song.


Outside one of the strays we feed
seems sick and could by dying,
not eating well for a week,
vomiting whatever he gets down,
waiting a little farther off the
porch each day when I go out
to feed him and his brother and
their even-more-errant mother.
Dunno if we can catch him
to get him to the vet --- he’s
so intrinsically wary -- and
there may not be much that
can be done with him if
its HIV or leukemia, except
to let him love what remains
and then -- gently, gently --
put him down.




There’s a drip drip drip
of sadness in these days,
a slowly filling
dark gold cup which
one day we’ll be forced
to drink to dregs &
give up some ghost of
our former happy days.
The drops come at us
from every thing we
live and have our being:
our parents aging past
the sere; cats everywhere
getting sick; our finances
getting slowly worse;
our house in need of repairs
I cannot do nor can
afford to pay someone
to come out to fix; this
season slowly gathering
in its wild bellows the
hurricanes of August
and September, whirls
sure to wreak over this
way or over friends
and family nearby; our
country’s economy
in bad arrears, paying only
to the rich; the world’s
modernity corroding
something in the soul;
our CO2s eroding ozones
in the atmosphere and
ice packs north and south
so imperceptibly we
can’t even hear the
drip drip drip of
the faucet which will
drown the coasts;
and this poem is
stuck exactly here
with its massive coils
wound three times
around my throat and
heart and loins, too big
for anyone’s damn good
and darkening the
merriment which once
made green its woods.
Sheesh. Is there any
other way, Lord, than
through this dreary
pit of sea-bottoms
and heart-darks and
unremitting fires
my loins will never
meet, much less sate?
This way-too-early
morning barrow is stacked
high with fine metalwork
and bottles of spilt
whiskey, with surf-billows
and crossed-Oh cunts and
asses, a trove of verboten
booty no one cares to read.
Just who will hold the
pen which writes free
of this dank wild den
of susurrant, labial delights,
the quintessence of
a thousand 4 a.m.s
writing withouts in belching
rage? Let me know, Lord:
gift my hand with whatever
willingness it takes
to praise this darkness
off the page, if Your
work so recommends
my own. I just keep
on keeping down
the bowel-like vaults
of night, my plashing
feet in counterpoint
to the drip drip dripping
from all that’s slowly
leaking through the roof--
sea-water, blood, sweat
and spume of ten
thousand beds, ink of
the oldest kind,
cobaltish lucence
spilled from ancient
lands whose thrall
I ever am. There I
go, I’ve done it again,
I’ve writ the same damn
sing song poem. Remit
it somewhere Lord,
if that’s Your will.
Seal it in one of
these emtpy bottles
and dispatch it on Your
tide. Ferry its insatiable
blue to the dryest shore
beyond where other
all the other lost angels
choir the salted breadth
of You: Or just drown
it beyond my view
of night and dreamy
lush garden and the
sad confines of a life;
remit it blue for blue.

Monday, June 19, 2006

Ogres On The Road




... Less than a billow of the sea
That at the last do no more roam,
Less than a wave, less than a wave,
This thing that hath no home,
This thing that hath no grave ...

-- Fiona MacLeod, “In the Night”



TRINITY


2004

Three fins weave this
wave from heart to hand
to page where your eyes shore;
consubstantial, male in
their martial quest for
affect, like the three kings
of Orient who ride their
camels slowly across
the starry desert, each
a third aspect, all pulsing
the obligatos of Empire.
First there is my greed
for sexual plunder, slick
and raw and urgent,
that bell which bears
a tight-balled ache to
hurl the next name of God.
Then there is the voyager
who never gazed at
a margin that he didn’t
wish to escape; his compass
is much different from the
first, pointing just beyond
the beloved toward the
angels she occludes.
Finally, there is the one
with molting wings who
refuses to call this
anything but calling;
he tends a font of quintessential
blue that isn’t blue at all
but sings the blues of it,
the way the ocean is not
blue but heaves great
dreams of blue on every
summer shore. Three
glands ooze their salt
mercurials into the
perplex ardor of this next
poem, rising from one great
body buried deep in me:
Cerne Giant, Oran in
his bone coracle, and
some Shakespearean wog
sawing a Dantean rag
on his bluey violin. Three
tenors warble center
stage of this hall of song,
belting out a three-part
harmony this next poem long.

***

Finally, rains of their own accord, a midmorning mist segueing into harder spiculations, the urgency of the torrent, slathering all with desperately needed moisture ... so there’s a suck to the Sunday, a receipt around and about and down the usual rituals of mowing, cleaning, ironing, cooking, recalibrating the being for the work week. A watered being, refreshened from an aquifer I call my giant past ...

A meditation here on the background of the hero. What he quests, he is, in some former sense, and the progression of his tale is regression, heading into wider and wilder steppes of the dream. Each test heightens the quandary of ego and Self: the weapons which the hero march off with work in the first battles yet are increasingly of no use in the subsequent ones.

Take, for instance, the figure of the giant which the hero encounters. It is one thing to meet and best the ogre on the road; it is another thing to tackle with his mother, a far older and menacing matrix (her jaws open wide beneath us); its is a third thing to enter the lair of the dragon, the oldest figure in this trio of encounters, the third apocalyptic embrace of the hero with his Self. Well, apocalyptic to the ego, because it knows it cannot resist or best the transformation about to take place.

To progress in the tale is to regress to its sources; the next figure on the road is the background of the former. In Iona, Fiona MacLeod traces this course back down in the lineage of St. Michael:

***

The “Iollach Mhicheil” — the triumphal song of Michael — is quite as much pagan as Christian. We have here, indeed, one of the most interesting and convincing instances of the transmutation of a personal symbol. St. Michael is on the surface a saint of extraordinary powers and the patron of the shores and the shore-folk; deeper, he is an angel, who is upon the sea what the angelical saint, St. George, is upon the land: deeper, he is a blending of the Roman Neptune and the Greek Poseidon: deeper, he is himself and ancient Celtic god: deeper, he is no other than Manannan, the god of ocean and all waters, in the Gaelic pantheon: as, once more, Manannan himself is dimly revealed to us as still more ancient, more primitive, and even as supreme in remote godhead, the Father of an Immortal Clan.

***

1. THE OGRE ON THE ROAD


Katherine Briggs writes in The Fairies in Tradition and Folklore

Often monstrous traits are attached to heroes, who sometimes seem to have changed from gods to heroes and from heroes to giants. In a learned and penetrating article in Volume 69 of Folklore, Dr. Ellis Davidson has examined the connection between Wade and Weland, and the beliefs we can deduce from various fragments of the story. It well illustrates the connections between the fairies, the giants, and the dead. In the course of the paper she says:

“Behind the figure of Weland the Smith it seems possible to discern a race of supernatural beings thought of in general as giants (but related also to dwarves and elves), who are both male and female, who live in families, who are skilled at the making of weapons and at stone-building, and whose dwellings may be reached by a descent into the earth of under-water. Wad and Weland are possibly Grendel also. The local traditions of giants who dwell in mounds, caves or stone tombs are of great interest, and Sir Gawain’s Green Knight should perhaps be added to the list.” (H.R. Ellis Davidson, “Weland the Smith,” Folklore Vol 69, 145-59)

(She continues:)

Occasional hill figures, like that at Cerne Abbas, or the Long Man of Wilmington, have generally gathered some kind of vague giant story to them, whatever their origin may have been. So the Cerne Abbas figure is supposed to be the outline of a giant killed by the local people as he slept a gorged sleep after eating their cattle. (see J.S. Udal, Doreshire Folk-Lore, Hertford, 1922, 154-8)

***

GIANT

June 15

Abbas Cerne was cut from chalk
where all the men had killed him,
sleeping on mountain sward
deep in the glut of slaughter.
His six-foot penis still glistens
with moon and sea and wombs
our wives will never speak of
though they smile faintly
when they dream. When he
walked his shoulders cleared
the highest ridges, his feet
connected villages in one stride.
He could stand far out at sea
with his head above the crests
like a darker-browed island,
his smile widening in mist
as he devoured errant ships.
And oh the hauls spilled
from his net, filled with
mackerel as large as bulls,
narwhals and sea-lions,
parcels of sea-treasure
too, fat chests of gold,
barrels of wild whiskey
still corked tight as
a nun’s hoo-ha, steeples
with bells not heard
on land for a thousand
years. It’s said he lived
down there, at the ass-
end of all seas where
dead sailors and lost gods
drift their fabled bones.
His abbey was in
a long-drowned town
and it was piled high
with verboten books
where every lost secret
has been bound, salt
liturgies now ebbed away,
tales of heroes too tall
for skeptic ears, spells for
spinning castle doors
and love-potions for
the maidenheads of kings
who battle and fell beneath
far huger moons of old,
wide as the sea and
gibbous in a heart
blue-blacker than the
one we’ve come to
call our own. His haunt
is drowned by the
thousand leagues of time
down which all tales fall
from ferocity to gleam
to broad shouldered shades
fading yet further down
to a certain ache of absence
which arches back in
welcome when a fragment
of his tale washes up
on this first shore.
A certain wave reveals
in its curved crash
a phosphor of a dream,
reminding us that he’s
still there in ghost relief,
chalk father of the psyche
we married. Oh and
that cock of his
was immense and
unmerciful as the sea,
thick as a drunk tongue
and as long as we are
buried when we’re
planted back into his loam.
My love of tall tales
strides with him out there
on that moony sea; the
wave rider of my song
is just his merry brow;
the singing of the topside
man arises from lungs
of heaving brine and silt
and tides like deep waves
across a basso clef
pure cliff to billowed abyss.
Sing down with me
in his beclouded jisms
of divine ferocity and tooth,
a wut or singing hut
of infernal holiness, eternal
sot and sate and murder
on green fields. He’s no more
me than the pen I her rage
though I sing of him as
hard and deep as I can,
my hand thus a colossal
striding profane man
who totems the singer’s clan,
whose salt-abbey I man
re-scribing all its manuscripts,
verse by spell by rann.




THE OGRE ON THE SHORE

2004

Too much of water hast thou, poor Ophelia.

-- Laertes, Hamlet

As always, my history assumes Your
mystery, insolving seas inside
my mother’s voice that day
she sang over silk-bruited waves.
She and it You meant to pair
on a shore of such narrow degree
that one step right or left
was either witchery or knowledge,
both doomed to boil my bones.
The ogre on the road of souls
may loom close to my father’s height
inside the doors I cannot pass;
surely the monster got
his basso and berserker cock
from my six-year-old’s lack
and reverence of such things;
but he is not there at every
crossroads to mentor me
in song, even though
he’s Poetry and more. Redder
jousts than sweet psalmody
are in his throat, and I’m a fool
to margin all he ravages
and cancels out. Not by Providence
but Victory!
the fish-man shouts
astride exultant waves, smashing
every naked shore with the his
uncleffed, sperm-gout gore.
How else can I say it? There is
my father’s dream or vision
of meeting Thor on the northern-
most wild of Iona years ago,
turning from his history
to face that huge churl of
Hebridean gale, the soul
of every rock-browed cliff
devoured by wind and wave.
Was it passion that burst
my father’s heart in love
for that sworded knight of
Northern winds? Was that
first song hot enough to
bid my father turn his gaze
back round to Pennsylvanian
velds where he pried and set
god’s hoar skeleton stone by
cold-ribbed stone? Or was it
enough of the second
song which does not huff and blow
the footers down in any
appeasable way but is wind itself,
unmixed of any abbey’s mortared mould,
defiant even of the words themselves?
Must I thus proceed?
How to build a chapel fit
to sing of him whom pronouns quit,
who is instead that dancing fit
which spirals sea and sky?
Build on water, yes; but tower
in no wise semblant to the backward
glance which mints its empire
on a selfish penury, a dime a dance,
vaulting the dervish in mere pedigree,
my resume which overwrites the mystery
into the majescule of history,
nippling seas and crowning winds.
Oh the shore is ever dangerous
which walks between dominions:
Not to drown or fully ebb
nor even say which sands I stride on
—not quite a page, nor sheeted
from that windy rage which grinds
the mortal shell of the earth
to infinitesimals of cosmic dust.
And we just oxidizers and rust,
corrosive as the salty seas,
& uncoagulent as loosened skies,
never one but many throats
professing gorgeous dooms
every time a wave curls high
and rides the poem to hell
down one long choiring boom.



In the Christian era, the saints kept bumping up against their forefathers’ bones, which were usually collossal. s. Heavy upon them was the burden or quest of saving their ancestors from the mortal sin of pagan sooth.

The Life of Colum Cille (Columba), written in Irish by Manus O'Donnell and written in 1532, contains the following episode:

"Once when Colum Cille was walking beside the river Boyne a human skull was brought to him. The size of the skull was much bigger than the skulls of the people of that time. Then his followers said to Colum Cille, "It is a pity we don't know whose skull this is, or the whereabouts of the soul that was in the body on which it was." Colum Cille answered, "I'm not leaving this place until I find this out from God for you."

"Then Colum Cille prayed earnestly to God for that to be revealed to him, and God heard that prayer so that the skull itself spoke to him. It said that it was the skull of Cormac mac Airt, son of Conn of the Hundred Battles, king of Ireland, and an ancestor to himself, for Colum Cille was tenth generation after Cormac. And the skull said that although his faith wasn't perfect, he had a certain amount of faith and, because of his keeping the truth and that as God knew that from his descendants would come Colum Cille who would pray for his soul, He had not damned him permanently, although it was in severe pain that he awaited these prayers.

"Then Colum Cillle picked up the skull and washed it honorably, and baptized and blessed it; then he buried it. And Colum Cille did not leave that place until he had said 30 masses for the soul of Cormac. And at the last of the masses, the angels of God appeared to Colum Cille, taking Cormac's soul with them to enjoy eternal glory through the prayers of Colum Cille."

- O'Donnell, The Life of Colum Cillle, transl. B. Lacey, Dublin 1998

***

THE HEATHEN GIANT

Feb. 2005

(In episode 4 of The Voyage of St. Brendan) Brendan, having had a ship built for him, finds the exceptionally large head of a dead man on the beach. Its forehead measures five feet across. When Brendan asks what kind of life he has led, the man’s head answers that he was a hundred feet tall and very strong. He was a heathen who waded through the sea to rob ships. This he did for a living. In a heavy storm which whipped up the waves to extreme heights he was drowned. Brendan offers to pray for the giant, and to beg God to revive him so that he may be baptized. Once that is done, the giant may even, if he lives to praise God, find forgiveness for his sins, and eventually ascend to paradise. The giant refuses; his is afraid that in his new life he might not be able to withstand the temptation of sin. What if he started robbing again? He would be a lot worse off then as, according to the giant, Christians are punished much more severely in hell than pagans. Moreover, the prospect of having to suffer the pain of death as second time frightens him. He wants to go back to his torments / poor companions in the place of darkness. He departs with Brendan’s best wishes. Brendan then proceeds on his way.

-- Clara Strijbosch, The Seafaring Saint

The old nights lay like massive bones
scattered on the beach, the skull
like a split moon buried in the sand.
Sea-sounds through its occiput
are the voices of memory, faint
and ghastly as the depths I once
fell to find you in the darkest
beds of sweet abyss. He remembers
the feral heart of old, icy and
on fire for plunder, parting thighs
with blue gusto & launching his
dragon ship there with the pith
and pitch of awfulness,
rowing voices crowing one pent
dragon seethe. Eye-sockets big
as church-doors retain the marrow
of those nights, their dark abcessa
still lucent, even lewd, harrows which
invite the next arriving saint to
find a heaven wide enough to
revive and save a soul so massive,
old and hungry. But he will not
rise again, not for all the pearly
virginettes bent in heaven’s
puffy marge. Wholly dark now, he
strides between this beach and
those dark nights, sporting
in a sea of finned and ghostly
salt delights, unrepentant
as my backwards glance which
call his life and ways both holy.
I appoint that house of bleached
ribs apt chapel of the wilder
half of my heart and God’s and
yours, you who would embrace
the seven seas to slake
your womb’s blue belling need.




SKULL MUSIC

2004

My head is also Yours, rude stone,
Bone petra: A vault of verbal
Coins and blue booty, the old slush
Pile of all my days and what You
Make of them. I now believe that
Each event enfolds three cups here:
The tale, its bedding, and the dream
It opens like a door. It’s no
wonder that skulls were set in the
Lintels of barrows, and pitched down
Wells. Nor that I’ve found so many
Here. Each poem is but a tongue both
Back and forward of Your own, my
Totem father, my old stone cross.
May Your bone summit bless this toss.




2. GRENDEL’S DAM


They went to sleep. And one paid dearly
for his night’s ease, as had happened to them often,
ever since Grendel occupied the gold-hall,
committing evil until the end came,
death after his crimes. Then it became clear,
obvious to everyone once the fight was over,
that an avenger lurked and was still alive,
grimly biding time. Grendel’s mother,
monstrous hell-bride, brooded on her wrongs.
She had been forced down into fearful waters,
the cold depths, after Cain had killed
his father’s son, felled his own
brother with a sword. Branded an outlaw,
shunned company and joy. and from Cain there sprang
misbegotten spirits, among them Grendel,
the banished and accursed, due to come to grips
with that watcher in Heorot waiting to do battle.
The monster wrenched and wrestled with him
but Beowulf was mindful of his mighty strength,
the wondrous gifts God had showered on him:
He relied for help on the Lord of All,
on His care and favour. So he overcame the foe,
brought down the hell-brute. Broken and bowed,
outcast from all sweetness, the enemy of mankind
made for his death-den. But now his mother
had sallied forth on a savage journey,
grief-wracked and ravenous, desperate for revenge.

-- Beowulf, 1251-78, transl. Seamus Heaney

***



DAM

June 17

If you think sons Grendel
Cerne & Caliban were bad,
try stepping back into their
moms, those giant dams of
heart so hot with Hekatean
spleen you’d think their wombs
were lava casks, fountains
of deranging ire. Beowulf dove
in the mere to have it out
with she who nursed Grendel
on blue gall, who after the
son was dispatched became
the greater hurt of Heorot,
a fen of gore-dripping jaws.
At the bottom of the lake
the hero met the mama
and battled in a swallowed
court where body parts still
drifted about the abysmally
dark pall, the witched waters
almost too deep and drear
for Beowulf’s greatest test
which he would yet survive.
(The third test with the worm
went back, sadly, too far.)
The Cally berry of Ulster
would fly over the heights
in the thick of night
with Cerne’s big balls
bound in her skirt, tonnish
boulders which she ferried
far to build a mobile
court, the castle which
moves every night from
one man’s dream to
the next. And then there’s
Sycorax, the prioress
of Shakespeare’s final isle,
gone when the tale begins, her
rude magic rough in Properero’s
hands, leeched in his book
of charms, her ancient
darkness washing against
the play like tides
against the island’s shores,
haunting every line.
These dames don’t fuck
around, if you know
what I mean; or they
do and wildly so,
off every psalter page,
deep down beneath
the bleaching altars of
the male god’s history
when his loins and
hands were colossal
havocs of libido
cockstrutting across
the earth. Behind
every of those big lugs
there’s a dam, a walled-
off lake of fire whose
womb is bottomless,
whose will cements
her sons into Green Chapels
of headless rapine
and sea-wide ravages.
In her name those giants
wreak havoc on the
later realm, like adulterated
children of the booze,
drowning all they touch
dementing every kiss with
fire. The father in those
old tall tales can never
quite be found, much less
named, though he’s a bastard
to be sure, god in his
nth iniquity, saddled to
his black hips and armed
with dragon’s teeth. He
broke in one night
and had his way with
her (who once was young
and beautiful, betrothed
to kings of men) -- Had
his way with her all night,
fucking her so hard
and deep as to pockmark
the very moon with
gouges and crevasses
amid tranquil seas
of hurled sperm. The
son she bore was her
revenge on the
eviction of her rule
by men more conscious
than they dared
or knew was death to try.
Up from the fens
and moors she sent
her monster son,
and when he fell to
knights and priests
she washed out from
the tide, a fell
malignant tree-sized
thing no sword has
ever touched, nor
gospel ever quelled.
I leave her rasping
at the door outside
at the hag ends of
this poem’s hour,
a pent growl of a purr
with every claw distended
one inch from coming through.
Say what you will of
her but only mud and fire
will do to see her standing
there outside my writing
room, an invitation
to the dance and die
amid the echoes of salt doom.

***


GIANTESS

I am Cupid’s WMD, a
Catapult of blue breasts. The skulls
Of my scooped-out lovers line the
Mazes of my cave, far beneath
The rolling sea. By day I dream
Of your cock and balls in this mouth
Of stone; by night I feed, tapping
O so gently my suckered limbs
Against your window panes, calling
You out to drown my way. My rule
Has lasted here some four hundred
Million years, yet every dusk which
Darkens abyss I wake afresh,
Starved wet in uncoiling desire,
Beak snapping for your milk of fire.



-- In an article in Geology 28, L. Piccard finds tectonic roots for Grendel’s mam:

A multidisciplinary study reveals close correspondences between mythological descriptions, arrangement of the cult-sites and local active faults in ancient Greece (Piccardi, 2000a and 2000b). Chthonic dragons, mostly feminine polymorph creatures, were also indicated at many of these special sacred places, and their lairs are located directly above major active faults (Piccardi, 2000c). The veneration of these places might have been a consequence of the observation of peculiar natural phenomena, such as gas and flames emissions, underground roaring, ground shaking and ground ruptures. Maybe this coincidence is simply circumstantial in the East Mediterranean due to the abundance of myths in such a highly seismic region. However, it can likewise be observed in areas less active seismically, and with different mythologies. Scotland, for example, is famous for its modern myth of the Loch Ness monster, affectionately called Nessie. Known to derive from a primitive cult of the water-horse, sacred to the Picts, its first written mention appears in Adomnan's 'Life of St. Columba' (7th century AD). In the original Latin description the dragon appears "cum ingenti fremitu" (with strong shaking), and disappears "tremefacta" (shaking herself), which seems to point to a telluric nature of the monster living in the lake. In fact, Loch Ness is positioned directly over the fault zone of the most seismic sector (for example the M=5 earthquake of 18.09.1901) of the Great Glen Fault, the major active fault in Scotland. In this light, many modern eyewitness reports attributed to Nessie may find a simple natural explanation.

-- “Active faulting at Delphi: seismotectonic remarks and a hypothesis for the geological environment of a myth.” Geology, 28, 651-654.


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Jung frames the giantess as the mother and consort of the giant whom the hero first encounters, a greater door to the inner dark. He writes in a 1932 article on Picasso:

...When I say 'he,' I mean that personality in Picasso which suffers the underworld fate - the man in him who does not turn towards the day-world, but is fatefully drawn into the dark; who follows not the accepted ideals of goodness and beauty, but the demoniacal attraction of ugliness and evil. It is these antichristian and Luciferian forces that well up in modern man and engender an all-pervading sense of doom, veiling the bright world of day with the mists of Hades, infecting it with deadly decay, and finally, like an earthquake, dissolving it into fragments, fractures, discarded remnants, debris, shreds, and disorganized units. Picasso and his exhibition are a sign of the times, just as much as the twenty-eight thousand people who came to look at his pictures.

When such a fate befalls a man who belongs to the neurotic, he usually encounters the unconscious in the form of the 'Dark One,' a Kundry of horribly grotesque, primeval ugliness or else of infernal beauty. In Faust's metamorphosis, Gretchen, Helen, Mary, and the abstract 'Eternal Feminine' correspond to the four female figures of the Gnostic underworld, Eve, Helen, Mary, and Sophia. And just as Faust is embroiled in murderous happenings and reappears in changed form, so Picasso changes shape and reappears in the underworld form of the tragic Harlequin - a motif that runs through numerous paintings. It may be remarked in passing that Harlequin is an ancient chthonic god.
The descent into ancient times has been associated ever since Homer's day with the Nekyia. Faust turns back to the crazy primitive world of the witches' sabbath and to a chimerical vision of classical antiquity. Picasso conjures up crude, earthy shapes, grotesque and primitive, and resurrects the soullessness of ancient Pompeii in a cold, glittering light - even Giulio Romano could not have done worse!

Seldom or never have I had a patient who did not go back to neolithic art forms or revel in evocations of Dionysian orgies. Harlequin wanders like Faust through all these forms, though sometimes nothing betrays his presence but his wine, his lute, or the bright lozenges of his jester's costume. And what does he learn on his wild journey through man's millennial history? What quintessence will he distill from this accumulation of rubbish and decay, from these half-born or aborted possibilities of form and colour? What symbol will appear as the final cause and meaning of all this. In view of the dazzling versatility of Picasso, one hardly dares to hazard a guess, so for the present I l would rather speak of what I have found in my patients' material.

The Nekyia is no aimless and purely destructive fall into the abyss, but a meaningful katabasis eis antron, a descent into the cave of initiation and secret knowledge. The journey through the psychic history of mankind has as its object the restoration of the whole man, by awakening the memories in the blood. The descent to the Mothers enabled Faust to raise up the sinfully whole human being - Paris united with Helen - that homo totus who was forgotten when contemporary man lost himself to one-sidedness.





ORAN AND THE GIANTESS

You found her sleeping in that cave
Which fonts the western sea, below
All depths I dream. Kissed her gently
As a shade and watched her stir and
Sigh and slowly open her deep
Eyes. She whispered your name as you
Climbed in next to her, singing
All the while. What happened next you
Would not say, except to smile that
Dolphins and sea horses pranced round
The bed while sea-blooms widened to
Hurl wavelike a wild blue perfume.
You drank in draughts the distillate
Of her salt souterrain, till dawn
Awoke me startled here, blank page
Beneath, and pen like her in hand.
My joy’s your shore, this crashing land.





THREE: ENTER THE DRAGON

When the dragon awoke, trouble flared again.
He rippled down the rock, writhing with anger
when he saw the footprints of the prowler who had stolen
too close to his dreaming head.
So may a man not marked by fate
easily escape exile and woe
by the grace of God.
The hoard-guardian
scorched the ground as he scoured and hunted
for the trespasser who had troubled his sleep.
Hot and savage, he kept circling and circling
the outside of the mound. No man appeared
in that desert waste, but he worked himself up
by imagining battle; then back in he’d go
in search of th cup, only to discover
signs that someone had stumbled upon
the golden treasures. So the guardian of the mound,
the hoard-watcher, waited for the gloaming
with fierce impatience; his pent-up fury
at the loss of the vessel made him long to hit back
and lash out in flames. Then, to his delight,
the day waned and he could wait no longer
behind the wall, but hurtled forth
in a fiery blaze. The first to suffer
were the people on the land, but before long
it was their treasure-giver who would come to grief.

The dragon began to belch out flames
and burn bright homesteads; there was a hot glow
that scared everyone, for the vile sky-winger
would leave nothing alive in his wake.
Everywhere the havoc he wrought was in evidence.
Far and near, the Geat nation
bore the brunt of his brutal assaults
and virulent hate. Then back to the hoard
he would dart before daybreak, to hide in his den.
He had winged the land, swathed it in flames,
in fire and burning, and now he felt secure
in the vaults of his barrow; but his trust was unavailing.

-- Beowulf 2287-2323, transl. Heaney

***

Heaney writes in an introduction to his translation,

... the dragon has a wonderful inevitability about him and a unique glamour. It is not that the other monsters are lacking in presence and aura; it is more that they remain, for all their power to terrorize, creatures of the physical world. Grendel comes alive in the reader’s imagination as a kind of dog-breath in the dark, a fear of collision with some hard-boned and immensely strong android frame, a mixture of Caliban and hoplite. And wile his mother too has a definite brute-bearing about her, a creature of slouch and lunge on land if seal-swift in the water, she nevertheless retains a certain non-strangeness. As antagonists of a hero being tested, Grendel and his mother possess an appropriate head-on strength. The poet may need them as figures who do the devil’s work, but the poem needs them more as figures who call up and show off Beowulf’s physical might and his superb gifts as a warrior. They are the right enemies for the young glory-hunter, instigators of the formal boast, worthy trophies to be carried back from the grim testing-ground -- Grendel’s arm is ripped off and mailed up, his head severed and paraded in Heorot. It is all consonant with the surge of youth and the dire compulsion to win fame “as wide as the wind’s home/as the sea around cliffs,” utterly as manifestations of the Germanic heroic code.

Enter then, fifty years later, the dragon. From his dry -stone vault from a nest where he is heaped in coils around the body-heated gold. Once he is wakened, there is something glorious in the way he manifests himself, a Fourth of July effulgence fire-working its path across the night sky; and yet, because of the centuries he has spent dormant in the tumulus, there is a foundedness as well as a lambency about him. He is at once a stratum of the earth and a streamer in the air, no painted dragon but a figure of real oneiric power, one that can easily survive the prejudice which arises at the very mention of the word “dragon.” (xvii-xix)


WYRM

June 18

He’s the old bastard at the
bottom of my brain, coiled
in a vault deeper and older
than the sea, rounding his
thousand drear vertebrae
around a million years of
gold lost down the booty well.
The son was awful, a wreaker
of wrecked halls; the mother
was worse at the bottom
of her mere, defeated only
with a giant’s blade found
hanging on her treasure-wall.
But this guy was the worst
in England’s oldest written
tale, a berserker of wing
and soil awakened from
long stupor to raven
sky and land with pre-mother
pagan fire, the genius
of the tomb that wombs
all later mater father-hater
ire. Here’s the rouge
spermatazoon who cracked
the cosmic egg, bellowing
in sky thunder while
the earth squirmed in
receipt, the oceans
parted like thighs as the
lightning pealed and rang
the bells of hell
all the way from heaven
in addered spits of foam.
Here’s drunk daddy
Saturn eating all his
chillen as they birthed,
the boggler who stained
his chops with every
demiurge to quim the
roiled brain. Here’s the worm
of Uffington who meanders
every night the sky,
feeding his wings on
moon star milk,
ferrying wyrd lucence
back down into his lair
beneath the mountain
under the sea which
lies undermost my
dimmest memories
where all the fathers go
when their persons
have been laid to rest
& battened through
the guts of worms
and shat in dirt as
dusts. It all rains
down that far in a
a ghastly spiculate,
drip by drip of
blood, like shots of
booze upon the tongue
of sleeping beast.
Our final receipt
thus feeds the wyrm
who’s always got one eye
open, no matter how
deep we sleep. Oh
he’s something,
that dragon father
in his lair, brute
and horrid as first
things go. Who am
I to creep down there
and pry this cup
from his coils, so
gold and weirdly
carved with the
world’s seven days?
He only seems to be
sleeping, you know: it’s
more like senescence,
an old man’s swoon where
his thoughts loose in
a river where nothing
quite takes hold
nor ever can let go.
I sing him here
this far down,
singing low as I can
for fear of waking
what will never stop
enraging this sweet land
with that old violence
that dark time’s
secret wand.

THE LAMBTON WORM

Like the monster whom Andromeda was to be sacrificed, the Lambton Worm was the punishment of impiety. The young Heir of Lambton was a wild lad, and one Sunday morning, when everyone else was going to church, he insisted on sitting fishing in the river, in full sight of the worshippers. When the bell had stopped and the church door was closed, the Heir had a catch. A stranger was passing that way, and the Heir called to him to come and look at it. “He’s shaped like an eft,” he said, “and it has seven holes in its head like a lamprey. What is it?”

“I never saw its like,” said the stranger. “It seems to me to bode no good.” The Heir took the thing off the hook, and threw it in disgust into the Castle Well. He thought no more of it for a long time.

But years passed, and the thing grew. The Heir steadied down, and went off to the Holy Land. But while he was away the thing grew too big for the well, and came out and began to ravage the countryside.

At length it got so big that it coiled three times around Lambton Hill, and every night it had to be given the milk of seven cows to keep it quiet. Many people tried to destroy it, but its breath was venemous, its hide was thick and when it was cut to pieces they joined up again.

At last the Heir came back, and by the advice of a wise man he destroyed the creature, wearing spiked aromour so that it wounded itself when it bit him, standing in the rushing waters of the Weare, so that the dragon’s limbs were carried down one by one as he cut them off, and could not re-unite.

But he had to pay for his success by killing the first creature that met him on his return. He failed in this condition, and since then no heir of Lambton has died in his bed.

-- W. Henderson, Notes on the Folklore of the Northern Counties of England, 1879, in Katherine Briggs, The Fairies in Tradition in Literature

Briggs comments: “The dragon which joins itself when it is cut and which coils round hill belongs to an old tradition. We are within hearing of primitive things.”




ENTER THE DRAGON

2004

The Dark -- felt beautiful.
-- Emily Dickinson (Fr. 627)

Beware the scented bed of
Love: it rides upon the
dragon’s back who swims
abyssal realms. Drowse
there and you’ll wake
a molted man of fire,
enrapt inside the rupture
of the devil of deep
welcome. Your wings
will lift you into nights
the size of titan ire,
your eyes whet and keen
for any trace of blue
embroilment to fall,
silklike, from yet
knowable breasts
ripe and leaking
dragon’s milk, booze
poured from paps
of doom. Ride such
nights at your peril,
son of ancient smiles:
Do not presume you
have tooth or troth
sufficient for that dark
demanding angel ride
into the chasm which
splits the fundaments.
Just hold on for your
immortal soul
and let heavens collide
and smash down
every shore. Let every
numen reveal the bestial
depths below, like buoys
singing on blackened tides,
rippled by deep waves
fanning deeper lands
than undreamt Love can go.

RED DRAGON

2005

Lucifer (“Fire-bearer”) in Hebrew is
Helel ben Sahar, “Bright Son of the
Morning.” Later tradition has linked him
to the planet Venus and, somewhat
ambiguously, to other fiery falling
figures: Hephaestus, Prometheus, Phaeton,
Icarus. The pride that made him sit
“in the seat of God” led to his fall; this
is the Greek hubris so often punished
by cosmic justice. The final battle of
Revelation was also interpreted as a
primal battle, the war in Heaven between
Lucifer's forces and those of St. Michael
at the beginning of time. After the fall,
Lucifer, identified with the red dragon,
becomes as hideous a he had become
beautiful -- and changed his name to
Satan.

-- Alice K. Turner, A History of Hell

Oh you should have seen me back then
as I ravened starry heavens in
my silver Rolls convertible, my black
hair like a mane wild in courses of the
night, my hands more perfect than
poured marble at the wheel. There wasn’t
an angelette in all eternity who could
resist my warm smile and icy eyes;
I could plunge a phallus of pure blue fire
right through ‘em with a glance. All those
downy wings spread wide in hot delight
of me! The O-mouths of ecstasy like
black holes birthing a legion suns with
each new name of God they called me
as I plunged and pumped the rebel fire.
I nailed ‘em all in the aeons of my youth,
each a campaign to mount the Master’s throne.
So many followed after me like whorls
of musky afterburn, cupping starlight
from the pools of sweat I left behind
between their ravished breasts, that cold
fire small comfort for eternity yet
infinitely far too much for life The rosewood
inlay above the backseat of that beastly Rolls
toward my end was notched ten billion
times, each scar and angel star, the
only true map of the horny heavens.
That fabled car is now smashed into the rocks
at the bottom of an abyss of black fire.
That’s where me and my element and
vampiric brood were hurled to when the Master
decreed I’d hurled rebellious oats around
the gables of his mansions long enough.
Every way I once shone bright is now
a hellish underglow; the smile I once
reaped angels with in a flash is now
this dragon’s snarl. I once was Lucifer
but that was long ago, before every thrill
heisted from the Master’s lap returned
to me, crying, Satan. Every delight I halved
from His light is now a scale heaped on my flesh,
a coil which circles now the undersides of the
earth’s own mortal plunge to smoking ruin.
But don’t be scared, my friend: I don’t
reveal the visage of desire’s fate till long
after you have fallen through the last bed
of your ding dong dorking life. By day you
only see this middle-aging man who shows
not an inkling of his former years. Who would
guess that the bland man driving in traffic
next to you was once the rapture of an angel’s
crease, the feral pillage of gossamer skirts
in the back seat of a hot car at the darkest
edge of town? No one: that’s the Master’s
curse, to burn the wings off every ache to
romp and roger His high heaven. That outer
fire burned wholly down and in, hurling
in its fumes that tell-all-book of big-night
drives to a place where none will ever
read it. My hell’s found in what burned from
my smile when the tide turned the other
way: when she at last refused to get in
and walked demurely off, leaving me with
this endless ache which no thrust skyward
could ever again slake. Forever now I am
the road not taken by every good impulse,
the shadow of infernal lust which no longer
must compulse maturing virgins of the heart
toward bad and worser ends. The hood
ornament of my Rolls was once the ikon
of my war with God is now all that remains
of my desire, washed on some faraway beach:
I am he who all put behind to start their
histories, the forever middle-aging man
between God and His procreative mysteries.